Have you ever wanted something so bad, that you ached. Probably yes.
I'm writing this entry from Kona, Hawaii, my new home for a couple months...and it's beautiful here. But beautiful isn't good enough. I want more. Actually...I want ugly. I want to be where no one else wants to be. My heart aches for that place in the mud and dirt, covered in mosquito bites, where, when you get sick, help will never make it in time. I want to rely so much on God, that He is all I have. And He is bringing me to that place, first in my heart, before in my physical. And that's hard, because it's easier to change my surroundings, than change my heart...but when my heart is changed, so are my surroundings, because I look at everything differently. Hmmm...I learn more when I write stuff out too...this is good. Inside of me are feelings and thoughts, but that's all they are, a mess of jumbled words, and writing puts them into order, and my eyes are opened to what I really am.
If you are reading this...please say a prayer for me. I am in a season of transitioning, and it's never easy, but the outcome is always worth it. God is bringing me out of my past and into my future. Out of who I was, and into who I am. So, mahalo (that's "thank-you" in Hawaiian) ;)
Well, I'm going to get out of this room, and go to the beach. I have the weekend before classes start, and I think I may be hanging out on a boat tomorrow...I know, sucks to be me eh. ;)
May our Father bless you with truth!
Sharon rose
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Not in the movie, but the real end to The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe:
So these two Kings and two Queens with the principal members of their court, rode a-hunting with horns and hounds in the Western Woods to follow the White Stag. And they had not hunted long before they had a sight of him. And he led them a great pace over rough and smooth and through thick and thin, till the horses of all the courtiers were tired out and these four were still following. And they saw the stag enter into a thicket where their horses could not follow. Then said King Peter (for they talked in quite a different style now, having been Kings and Queens for so long), “Fair Consorts, let us now alight from our horses and follow this beast into the thicket; for in all my days I never hunted a nobler quarry.”
“Sir,” said the others, “even so let us do.”
So they alighted and tied their horses to trees and went on into the thick wood on foot. And as soon as they had entered it Queen Susan said,
“Fair friends, here is a great marvel, for I seem to see a tree of iron.”
“Madam,” said, King Edmund, “if you look well upon it you shall see it is a pillar of iron with a lantern set on the top thereof.”
“By the Lion’s Mane, a strange device,” said King Peter, “to set a lantern here where the trees cluster so thick about it and so high above it that if it were lit it should give light to no man!”
“Sir,” said Queen Lucy. “By likelihood when this post and this lamp were set here there were smaller trees in the place, or fewer, or none. For this is a young wood and the iron post is old.” And they stood looking upon it.
Then said King Edmund, “I know not how it is, but this lamp on the post worketh upon me strangely. It runs in my mind that I have seen the like before; as it were in a dream, or in the dream of a dream.”
“Sir,” answered they all, “it is even so with us also.”
“And more,” said Queen Lucy, “for it will not go out of my mind that if we pass this post and lantern either we shall find strange adventures or else some great change of our fortunes.”
“Madam,” said King Edmund, “the like foreboding stirreth in my heart also.”
“And in mine, fair brother,” said King Peter.
“And in mine too,” said Queen Susan. “Wherefore by my counsel we shall lightly return to our horses and follow this White Stag no further.”
“Madam,” said King Peter, “therein I pray thee to have me excused. For never since we four were Kings and Queens in Narnia have we set our hands to any high matter, as battles, quests, feats of arms, acts of justice, and the like, and then given over; but always what we have taken in hand, the same we have achieved.”
“Sister,” said Queen Lucy, “my royal brother speaks rightly. And it seems to me we should be shamed if for any fearing or foreboding we turned back from following so noble a beast as now we have in chase.”
“And so say I,” said King Edmund. “And I have such desire to find the signification of this thing that I would not by my good will turn back for the richest jewel in all Narnia and all the islands.”
“Then in the name of Aslan,” said Queen Susan, “if ye will all have it so, let us go on and take the adventure that shall fall to us.”
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